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Why I Decided To Cut My Hair

I’ve been asked serval times about what made me wanna cut my hair. Well the answer is pretty simple…it’s hot outside. I don’t think anyone understands Alabama weather, but it’s basically a living hell here in the summer. But it’s not all the temperature that gets to you, it’s the humidity. It can be 83F and it feels like 100F.
There are days where I miss my long hair. I look back at pictures and a little, tiny feeling of regret comes to mind. Then Florence +The Machine comes on the radio and reminds me to “shake it off, shake it off.”
So there you have it, the reason why I cut my hair.

You’re probably wondering…”that’s it??”

Okay I’ll give some real reasons why I truly did cut my hair. Hope you enjoy and hope it may encourage someone out there!

1) My dad: Okay this is a family reason why. Growing up, my dad had me playing soccer. I remember as a kid I was crazy about my bangs and long hair, especially after seeing The Little Mermaid everyday, nonstop. I seriously thought my dad wanted me to be a boy because one day he told me to cut it all off. He said I should do that because I’ll look better. So you’re saying I look ugly right now dad? Okay! Even years later, there I was at the age of 20 and he kept telling me to chop it off….let’s just say, that when I came home with barely no hair, my dad smiled and said, “I can’t believe you did it. I TOLD YOUUUU IT LOOKED GOOD!” Okay dad gotta give it to you, you were right. I don’t think you understand how much it means to a girl when their dad says they look beautiful.

2) Vanessa Hudgens: Now we all have an a movie star we admire. Vanessa Hudgens happens to mine. When she premiered in her new movie Gimme Shelter I noticed she had cut her hair. Now I didn’t do it because she did it. Rather I decided to do it because I saw that it didn’t look so bad on her and I thought, maybe it wouldn’t look so bad on me either (no I don’t look nothing like her either. Don’t get your hopes up guys). I remember around Christmas time I showed all my friends and they agreed it wouldn’t look bad. Well chop chop chopping away I went.

3) Being single: Don’t get me wrong, being in a relationship is wonderful. But no matter how close I was to the last guy I dated, I always felt insecure about my appearance. I remember talking to him about chopping my hair off and he said it would be okay, BUT that it wouldn’t fit with my face. Tevs. Breakups aren’t fun, and no I didn’t do it because we broke up. I mean it had been almost a year later when I cut my hair. The point I’m trying to get across is that I let someone else’s (someone I loved) opinion get in the way. I thought he was right. Then I thought, dad always knows best. So a year later, I let go of all of those insecurities I had when I was dating and just chopped my hair off. There’s this rewarding feeling you get when you do something out of the ordinary once you’re single. Like you’ve been set free to do whatever you want.

4) Soon enough the right one will come: So the last guy didn’t think it would look good, but I know the right one will love it. There’s something about guys that they prefer long hair. Maybe it’s because the girl looks more feminine and it’s just the way it should be. Or they don’t like it because they don’t have no hair to play with when it’s short. I don’t know. But I know that out of all the guys, there will be one who won’t care if you have long or short hair, and will still find you beautiful just the way you are.

5) Its easier: This is probably one of the top reasons why I cut it. When my hair was long, I didn’t know what to do with it. I would spend more time fixing it, than I would going out. Now that it’s short, I just blow dry this bad boy and walk out the door.

6) Nursing school: Ponytails give me headaches. Going into nursing school, I figured since my hair had to be up, why not just cut it for nursing lab.

7) Confidence: All my life, I struggled with low self esteem. I never felt pretty, I never believed in myself, and I never could let go of any insecurities. After hearing my dad for many times telling me to cut my hair, breaking up, and getting tired of fixing my hair, I thought why not listen to nike and just do it. I remember as if it was just yesterday, I was at old navy talking to a good friend of mine. I was tired of all the negativity in my life and I remember telling her that I was going to ulta next door to chop off all the negativity. When I said that she responded saying if I did I could no longer be sad and I have to let go of the past. Once my hair was gone I felt free. Not saying it gave me the power to overcome my fears, but the moment i did something I’ve been wanting to do for a long time, I felt free. I was able to look in the mirror with my chin up and say, I’m beautiful. I was able to not care what others thought. And not only that but I believed I was beautiful enough to where I no longer put on make up like I use to.

8) Change: I wanted to change. I wanted to feel brand new. I wanted to look at myself now and say “wow my life has changed.” I wanted to be able to say I look different. I just wanted change. And boy did a lot change. And I’m thankful.

You’ll be surprised at the amount of compliments I’ve gotten. Yes I was nervous when I got it, and I worried what some will think. But I guess that’s what happens when you turn twenty. You sort of stop caring. So to all the girls out there who wish to cut their hair, try it. The worse that can happen is that it won’t look good. But 10 times out of 10 it does. Don’t believe what that little voice in your head said. In fact don’t believe what others will say. You are your own person, and it’s important that you express that to others. If you wanna dye your hair, do it, if you wanna cut it, do it. If you wanna just leave it the same, then do that too. But whenever your mind tells you something it wants do it and don’t listen to your “what if’s.” Don’t let your decisions be an itch your trying not to scratch. That can get uncomfortable sometimes.

Audrey Hepburn once said

The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides.


Elephants and Moon

She could care less about people. All she wanted was a night with the stars. She dreamt of drinking tea with the elephants and enjoying a garden full of flowers. She didn’t want to get drunk off of beer. Rather, she preferred wine and poetry. She only cared for the loss and broken because she was once that way. She preferred a night out with the moon rather than some random guy because she knew that the moon would always listen. She loved the simple things in life because they healed her heart. They fixed her when she thought she could never be fixed. And though she is lonely she is not without love. And I think that’s why so many people are lost.

We live for others that we forget to live for ourselves.

Endless Love

Every pain. Every emotion. she just wanted to let go. She wanted to feel whole. She wanted to feel herself but
Endless Love reminded her of something she would never have. 11:58 and he was on her mind. She refuse to let anything get to her but the room sped faster than a nascar race. She blocked to let go. She didn’t hate anyone. Just the emotions that crept in the middle of the night. She didn’t mean to say hello. She realized that deep down inside there something she was holding back. It was you. Maybe you don’t feel the same but she was in love and she wanted something that she knew she couldn’t have. How do you deal with a feeling that is never returned..
You don’t. You just live. You live with that emotion till you’re writing about it at 12 in the morning with a trash can in front of you. We wait till the storm ends to go out. But I’m the girl to dance in the rain in hopes of you showing up one day.

Little Mexico

Nothing. She drank to think about nothing. Yet there was so much on her mind. Like the sound of frogs and how they sang through the night. Are they happy it rain or enjoy bothering me?
Or the way the green apple soared through my veins. Does it always feel this good or am I just happy to let go of every feeling?
Feelings…I thought those were gone but they have a way creeping back to my cranium. Every neuron spark and every loss memory was found..excuse me little Mexico has to take a shot…

That was nasty, like tasting medical alcohol. I wonder if that’s what people in rehab drink when they’re suppose to be sober?
Rehab. A medical center for the abusers. Do we really learn to have self control. Or do we just act that way so people can leave us alone?


She was a fool to believe the rain would wait till she got inside. She was a fool for letting herself jump in the water when she knew she couldn’t swim. She was a fool. But a fool who loved. She loved and loved and loved because she knew he was the one. She loved because she wanted to be loved back. She loved because she knew she would die soon. But he..he never loved. He adored her. But he never loved. And he would have never loved. Because to him, having loved someone only meant letting go of everything he truly wanted. And she wasn’t worth the sacrifice.


You’re shy but your smile hides that. And you can’t help but share your love and laughter to every boring spirit. You know pain and it knows you so together you work to rid it from everyone else. You touch hearts to remind them they’re not alone. You carry secrets because not many people know how to hold on to it themselves. Sometimes you wish you could save that one person who rejects your offers, but only time will bring them to you. You’re patient with others. You listen to every heartbeat. You fix every broken heart. And when you fail, you love to google ways to help them the next time you see them.

But sometimes, just sometimes you wish there was that one person who cared as much as you do.